I'm not in the mood to blog since I'm tired of myself Angry? Yeah you can put it that way
I'll post pictures instead then I'll end and get back to work
HAPPY SMASHIN' 18th, KENNY :D
Is that how you cut your Power Ranger cake :/
Savour the classic moment of Kenny getting horrified/mortified while his face is smeared by cake
Eighteen years old already, Kenny cannot act like a small boy anymore :]
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I need intervention attention to stop temptation to scream
XOXO
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Sunday, March 30, 2008
So close to reaching that famous happy end Almost believing that this was not pretend
I think I've done my best, done all I could patience has always been my best trait but now, please I want to stop waiting just one day but it will never be enough
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Yesterday wasMathTrail@NUS basically we just ran around the campus solving 4 questions I was put in charge ofYishun Town Sec Team Cwith Charmaine 4 Sec3 girls, and this was what one of them wrote on their reflection sheet before the trail started "I feel hungry, tired, confused, because the vending machine can't function very well and that we might be very lost in the big school."
Goodness, kids nowadays
We managed to finish before the given time and we were(:
MY GROUP MY GROUP! (:
I actually had lunch with them and I got changed at NUS before heading to the MRT to go to Cine MetMei Ni and her Geoffrey Kenny and Hannahcame later we pooled (:
That's me, heh heh heh
Hannah darlin'
Kenny boy is the ultimate cute
See what I mean
Mei Ni and her Geoffrey
Oh and we saw Albert and Evan plus their people from their year's batch (: And then we got extremely bored so we headed to E2MAX, and watched "License to Wed"
HANNAHHHH!
(: (:
Mei Ni many many more :X
Yeah after that we all went separate ways ): I took the tube down to PS to meetBrian and Bestie we managed to catch up a while with Catherine (she's working there :)
Dinner at Ajisen you two are wonderful people :D and Bestie where is my shirt >:(
Took the tube home again got off at Commonwealth took the triple one home and then there was I again, alone
I hate it when I step into emptiness I hate it when the house's all quiet no shafts of light I hate it when I get home and the sun's still shining telling me I should be somewhere & all I do is run away
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I think I sprained my left ankle while running away ):
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Whatever happens, happened but isn't there something we could have changed some days we could have re-lived some words we should've said
Just know this - I'm never complete without you
XOXO
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Friday, March 28, 2008
Take me on a Spin because maybe, just maybe I might forget the past
If it only lasted a little longer then I'd be safe here in your arms
Let me be the one you come running to
XOXO
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Bad day at mid-week really, life needs to stop spiralling downwards
- I woke up this morning withgastric - I thought it was gastric, so I had breakfast the moment I reached school - I accidentally injured my index finger while clipping back the fastener on my file; I literally clipped the fastener onto my finger cos I wasn't looking (and now it still hurts like crap) - I got back my Math results:U(expected) - I realized it wasn't gastric butstomach flusince it kept coming back on and off - Athunderstormerupted as I was about to step out of school - On the train home I felt really weak cos the pain waskilling me - I was stupid enough to addchilli into the noodles I had for dinner - There were only2 pills left as medicine for my stomach flu
The only thing that made me smile was my performance at Espresso today though a big thank-you to all the supporters (okay those who were screaming) and Justina and of cos, Dea my guitarist (: you guys made me feel like I've finally found my ground thank you
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Don't despair because good things come to those who have to wait
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I met you at St. John's Cathedral down on Amsterdam made a trade with theDevil and he gave me your hand
I will fall asleep here in your arms
XOXO
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
The Blocks might have been over
but I'm still feeling the pressure Maybe because I don't get my deserved break whereas others who ended last Thursday had a full five day break consider yourselves lucky ):
Back to school tomorrow, what could be worse? Maybe the happier highlights would include my performance at the Wed Espresso and the Humanities Quiz since it's Arts week
But yes, other than that life hasn't been wonderful
I should have been places that I plan to be done things that I wanted to but no something always pulls me back
History today was alright, at least I hope was able to substantiate almost every essay with enough points and content please, a good pass is all I need
I've checked the Learning Management System (LMS) and yes an "S" for Chemistry and another "S" for CSE I'm just disappointed - maybe something had gone wrong maybe I went offtrack somewhere but the sure thing is I won't be happy with an "S" for CSE
Disappointments and life-is-so-not-wonderful-at-this-point-of-time aside, I watched "The Orphanage" after the History paper with Shian, Michelle, Justina and Kenny
It wasn't as scary as it looked but hey the ending was touching (:
URGENCIA (Urgent Sia!)
HAHAHAHAHA It means "Urgent" in Spanish, by the way
The rest left after the show cos they had something on so I asked Kenny to bring me to the pet shops around Yishun area and we travelled all the way down to Vivo too just to check out the pet shop there And I swear I didn't know the pet shop was just opposite some Comicz somethingsomething because the outlook of it gave the impression of a food court don't ask why
I'm not gonna upload the picture cos if I do my link to the video below will be erased and yes I don't know why either :/
So anyway here's a video of the ultimate cuteBelbel singing it put a smile upon my face, for awhile (:
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I let you in just a little too close I had to say goodbye before I said hello
XOXO
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Monday, March 24, 2008
Eddie's right, Monday sometimes lasts all week Especially so when your blocks don't end on Monday but on Tuesday instead
Good and bad, aye
Just wanted to thankKennyfor listening to my rants andEddiefor cheering me up - you made me find out that I got an "S" for my Chemistry blocks (:
History tomorrow, Arab-Israeli and the Kashmir conflict for International + National Unity and Interstate Tensions for SEA
I can't imagine studying for "A"s already ):
You're SuperGirl, remember? You'll breathe again
// Patience - Take That
Just have a little patience I'm still hurting from a love I lost I'm feeling your frustration Any minute all the pain will stop
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight Don't be too hard on my emotions
CosI need time My heart is numb has no feeling so while I'm still healing Just try and have a little patience
I really wanna start all over again I know you wanna be my salvation The one that I can always depend
I'll try to be strong believe me I'm trying to move on It's complicated but understand me
CosI need time My heart is numb has no feeling so while I'm still healing Just try and have a little patience
Cos the scars run so deep It's been hard but I have to believe Just have a little patience
CosI need time My heart is numb has no feeling so while I'm still healing Just try andhave a little patience
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Wish me luck while I wish upon my wishing star wherever it is
XOXO
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
There are just some classic jokes in your everyday conversations that you just have to remember
Char: (*complains) She totally went overboard la! Kenny: Where's that?
You are ourjoke of the year, Kenny congratulations (:
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Juliet loves the beat and the lust that it commands Drop the dagger and lather the bloodon your hands, Romeo
Give me a shot to remember and you can take all the pain away from me A kiss and I will surrender the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead A light to burn all the empires so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be In love with all of these vampires so you can leave like the sane abandoned me
"The Sharpest Lives" - MCR
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Life should go unplanned so when things don't go your way it wouldn't hurt so much
So yeah that's it I'm not gonna plan stuff for myself anymore because all of a sudden, somehow nothing's going my way
BESTIE I NEED TO TALK TO YOU ): why did you go to Taiwan I am going to pick you up from the airport when you arrive but I don't know what time ):
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I will be alright cos I must be strong
Crash & Burn you're not alone
XOXO
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Thursday, March 20, 2008
Will somebody tell me where to go cos I'm waiting still for a sign that mere indication of life
Maybe, maybe we should just go by the saying "Carpe diem" we wouldn't have to make plans for later, tomorrow or any other day justLive for the Moment take life everyday as it is
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GP was okay CSE had my hand aching Chemistry had my head on the table Math had me drawing imaginary question marks in the air
Thanks *JC
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I just heard this over 98.7FM how the Muttons at Midnight describe the show "Step Up 2"
"They dance dance dance dance, then they dance dance dance dance then they challenge the other fella then they dance dance dance dance no need to watch already!"
Really crappy, but hey at least I smiled
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1.17AM Let's go curl up in bed and maybe try to drift away to sleep :(I miss you, bestie)
XOXO
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
I remember how I felt when I took this couldn't face up to it so I ran
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When you feel so tired but you can't sleep stuck in reverse
Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones and I will try tofix you
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I'm getting restless my mind's not absorbing or comprehending anymore it's just pacing up and down wanting to get this all over and done with
My plans after blocks are still, well, basically unplanned so I'll just wait
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I'm cranky so screw life
XOXO
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
I wished on 11.11 tonight and now I'm waiting for my sign
Was I really that foolish to give it a try?
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I want a garden by the ocean tide because I lose my way searching for stage lights
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Tomorrow's the twentieth
XOXO
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
UPDATE!(:
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THURSDAY, 13th March
Breakfast with Gabriel, Jie Ji and Kenny at Macs then headed to school for CSE lessons was alright saw just so many many muggers outside the school library and the one word that ran through my head - pressure ):
It rained again, as expected like elephants and giraffes I must have been hallucinating the night before cos I swear I put my umbrella in my bag but it wasn't there :/
Thanks Kenny for running back home to take the super big umbrella and the Batman jacket(:
So it was just Kenny and I contemplating our choices when we reached the station and then we had a very impromptu idea to watch "Rule Number One"
I said we should watch "10,000 B.C" instead cos I swore that there was cleavage from that super hot female lead actress
Camilla Belle! (;
"Rule Number One" was like :/ the typical twisted local thriller - gunshots, blood, ghosts and gruesome scenes so yeah you guessed it half the time I was holding the hood of Kenny's batman jacket to my face and whispering to him, "What what what? Tell me!" I relied on verbal narration instead of appreciating cinematography (:
Home after the show cos I had a dinner to attend at Sentosa and you'll never believe how much the dinner cost at least$3000
WHERE THE HELL?
It's not named Imperial Treasure for nothing, you know
WHAT THE HELL?
Menu - click to enlarge My Cousin selected the dishes way three days before the dinner so they could prepare
I had Red Wine, (;
as well as Chinese wine (:
Would you eat this?
It's Braised Sliced Abalone with Whole Sea Cucumber I was too traumatised to eat it ): you can have it
Double Boiled Bird's Nest served in Whole Coconut (:
This is what you see outside
And that's not the end the catch was that, in the midst of savouring our dessert the Manager told us, "You can leave after you're done with dessert." -insert stunned expression: bill?!
"The bill has already been paid."
Cousin: Cannot la, cannot! No no no, I go call my broker now. Go pick fight already!
I guess I just had a taste of expensive taste (:
FRIDAY, 15th March
Stayed home and mugged and waited it out till evening time headed to Cine to meetLove, WF and KF "Spiderwick: The Chronicles" was unexpectedly good, so thumbs up! :D
AndTODAY Daddy brought us to the SPCA cos he finally sees the light and understands that I get extremely bored and lonely when I'm alone at home so he says we can adopt a puppy! (:
We saw two, one was partially blind but a only a few months old the other was really really tame but it's already six and a half ):
I saw a Siberian Husky and many other huge dogs ultimate coolness! (:
We couldn't decide, so Daddy said we'll go back another time ):
I want my puppy now
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All hail the block tests the torture has descended upon us, once more
We can do this and we'll pull through it together all of us will
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Keep me safe inside your arms like towers tower over me
XOXO
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
And maybe, I might just be better off somewhere else I could go back to the place where my Aunt cared the living room where my Grandma always has a smile for me I could pack up right now and leave to that house that I've lived for my past sixteen years
but Here?
This place means nothing to me I've no memory, no inkling to any happy moments gone by
It's just another unit in a block of flats one with four walls a place for me to sleep but then I realize my heart has never been Here
Because everytime I step inside there's no one only a shroud of darkness the air, so still no life just myself, exactly like today me with the sound of the rain outside
I need to find that excuse cos now I really do want to go
Because I don't want to live like this if I have to keep living up to her moral expectations I don't need to hear the misconceptions she has about my friends and myself when they're not true If you don't know me, don't act like you do
I've changed you were just too caught up in all other things to see that
Don't you know that sometimes I still doubt if I'm truly your flesh and blood because always, always when you scream into my face when you make the tears choke up my throat when it seems like I'm in the wrong I feel like I don't belong
But I know of a place that I do, now and that place will never be Here
Don't expect me to apologize
XOXO
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Don't fall asleep, even close your eyes but to your surprise, love the whole tunnel is light with walls of the purest white
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Well today woke up staring at these four walls and I felt the urgency so I decided to be productive
Studied History read CSE did very minimal Math skimmed through "Poverty" from the GP content notes
I am dateless tomorrow and on Thursday, too though I just remembered I have a family dinner I need to attend at Sentosa (whoopee) butFriday(: (: (:
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Only you can stretch a smile across my face
XOXO
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Monday, March 10, 2008
Beauty so unavoidable, everywhere you turn it's there I sit and wonder what am I doing here?
But on the telephone line I am anyone I am anything I wanna be I could be a super model a Norman mailer and you wouldn't know the difference, or would you?
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I'm still coughing ): and that's a bad bad sign
Had three full hours of History lectures today back-to-back Ai Shan waited for me cos she came back to get her Chinese "A"s result took the tube home, bought lunch and blab blab blab dang I'm lazy
Got changed and calledLove I swear I had to bug him to start on his essay so rush rush rush I cabbed down to GW to get tickets for10,000 BC at 7.10 PM and then worked with Love at Yoshi on the essay with his laptop
I teared during the movie cos I didn't expect it to turn out so meaningful (:
I MUST watch Step Up 2 and speaking of movies I have four free tickets to watch Spiderwick this coming Friday whee ~
Had to rush back home cos Lovehad a very very sudden impromptu CS match so helped him finish up his essay in the cab (hahaha) Really, two heads are better than one but just don't do it again (:
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I'll try my best again in this term's blocks cos I've got my goals and targets set just need to work hard
Stop Procrastinating, Start Studying
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Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart & when it's over you'll breathe again
XOXO
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Sunday, March 09, 2008
Open up your plans and damn you'refree Look into your heart and you'll findlove love love
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Guess I'm sort of over the results I got for my "A" level Chinese wasn't expected but life goes on anyway
Friday wasn't a good day, cos I was on my own although there was sunshine but yeah it didn't help much
I have rights to be upset (for a while) for really, we are, after all, humans
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Yesterday was like girls' night out again metBestie, Kelin and Ivyfor dinner but KBOX with Bestie before that whee ~
We ate at aKoreanrestaurant which menu apparently lookedJapaneseand were run byChinese people so yeah don't know what we were eating hahaha and and we took neoprints after that (: oh the joy it's been like almost ten thousand years
Oh oh and we saw someone's pile ofshit (if you get my drift, girls :)
Then we headed to Taka for ice cream at Macs walked to Far East cosLovewas there so he could send me home hell we should have nights like these more often