Well let's just all agree
to not talk about the NS thing anymore
because I don't want people who read (and don't tag) to tell others that I'm being a "Emo Kia"
and because I guess I have other things to be happy or concerned about
so to the hell with this

At least, for now

//

He had promised Christmas this year wouldn't be any different. It would be just like last year - dinner at their favourite Japanese restaurant, the exchange of gifts and the unavoidable squabble, followed by a trip down to the most insane place to be on the 24th of December till midnight. And it would be like there and then, her holding on tightly to his arm as they blended in with the crowd, the ground wet and slippery from foams of spray cans, taking small steps as the crowd surged forward. The heat and stench of sour perspiration, the excited chatter of people from all woks of life, the infectious festive joy and of course, the dazzling Christmas lights.

Maybe a promise should have never been made. Because it made her believe so hard in it, the heartache was overwhelming when things took a twist. She had thought that time would always be on their side. But it wasn't possible. Time has a habit of slipping away. And it has a crueler habit of taking the ones you love away from you.

All it took was just a sentence, or two.

"Isabel, I got accepted into the University in London. The letter came today. I'm leaving in two weeks' time." Dave quietly broke the news to her over their Friday dinner date. It was bad enough, receiving that cursed letter. But deep down he knew; his career couldn't be furthered pursued here. He was surely bound for somewhere else. Dave paused and peered into her brown eyes, but she made no movement.

"Bel? Honey? I'm so sorry I had to tell you this now, but you know my degree can't possibly be further pur- "

"Yes I know, Dave." Isabel put down her quivering fork and forced on a cheery smile. "I'm happy for you, because I know how much this means to you. You'll be back, right? It's not for forever."

As soon as she had managed to get her words out of her choking throat, Isabel felt the pain crashing onto her inside, breaking her heart. Behind her smiling facade, her mind ran through the bleak vision of their future. What if we've already moved on with our lives when he returns? What if he finds someone new while he's there? She had dreaded this day so, so much. Despite her continuous efforts to brace herself, her heart was not prepared. Maybe it never was; maybe she never made the effort to at all. And suddenly time just seemed to be so little – two weeks'
were all they had left.

"Yes, of course. It's not forever," Dave reassured her quickly while reaching across the table to hold her hand. "Just as long as you stay strong, we will be just fine."

Isabel nodded bravely at him, while she tried to hold back tears. We? Glancing at the Chocolate Mousse she ordered for dessert, she felt her appetite being washed away by the hot, searing pain. She had to be strong. She should've made better preparations, better plans. But whatever that she wanted to do to make the pain less torturous, she knew it wasn't going to help.

"I'm just worried about Christmas." He said, with a tinge of regret and sadness. There was something in that deep, masculine tone that she knew so well that wanted to break. "I'm so sorry."

Isabel quickly shook her head, holding back everything that she couldn't let go. "No, don't be. Don't worry, Dave." She said as the first tear slipped easily down her cheek. "I will be alright."

//

She could do this. She had to. And she was doing it alone, with no good reason why. Dave had been away for a week, seven days and twenty-three hours to be exact, but the pain was tremendous, and it drove her crazy. Almost with all her sanity gone, she hurtled herself into the dreaded night of tears. Each morning, she woke up to see red, swollen eyes and a throat that hurt. Sometimes it just felt like she was done crying, sometimes it felt like just crying was never good enough. But tonight, she was calm. It was the 24th of December.

Just like the last, the crowd pushed and surged forward. It didn't matter to her if she got lost in the mass of people; she was alone. She let herself loose, allowing the throng of people to move her along. She felt the rising heat, smelled the sour perspiration and saw the Christmas lights. She treaded the wet, slippery ground and saw bits of foam floating aimlessly in the air. She saw the gleeful faces of the people from all woks of life. And just like the last, it was the festive season once more.

The clamorous roar of the countdown from somewhere reached her ears, and jolted her awake from her undisturbed state. Like an enormous tidal wave, realization hit her when she saw Dave was not here, not with her tonight. Dave! She had to call Dave.

Jamming her fingers into her jeans pocket, she retrieved her mobile and dialed the number she memorized all these years. As the ringing sound went on and on insistently in her ear, her heart sank deeper into it's already broken state. Old wounds re-opened and scars began to re-surface, as the pain flooded through her once more. Her knees were slowly giving way. Pick up, Dave. You gotta pick this up. I need you right now.

//

Somewhere in the comfort of a run-down motel in the depths of a London street, the phone was ringing. Dave untangled himself from the string of wires connected to his laptop and leapt off his bed. Isabel! In an instant, he had pressed the "Answer" button, but all he heard on the other line was a dead dial tone. He was too late.

Dave stared stonily down at his mobile for a moment, his heart racing in his chest, his pulse pumping in his ears. Isabel. Time had taken her away, this time. He glanced at the clock on his desk that displayed Singapore time – it was twelve midnight. It was the 25th of December.

Raising his mobile to his ear gingerly once more, he whispered quietly to the dead dial tone, "Merry Christmas, Isabel. I love you, too."

"School's reopening,
yao kai xue le orh" bla bla
Thanks for the reminder (I really didn't need it)
which reminds me (again) that I need to get my school badge (because I lost it)

//

So here are the main highlights of the chalet
now that I've gotten the pictures :]

We checked in at about two plus (Thanks Fiona, for coming all the way down :)
slacked around and took some scandalous pictures
decided to head to Escape before we got horny
(okay you know I'm kidding)

Escape with the girls was uber FUN
rides with Bestie was almost unbearable with all the laughing
because when we got on the flying saucer thing
all I heard was "AHHHHH! AHHHHHH! AHHHHHHHHHHH!" from her on my right
and Kelin laughing her lungs out on my left

Sadly the Viking was closed
or we could've "chop"-ed the far end seats
to shout MJMG!
HAHAHA OMGxXzZ; Joke of the Day (:

We waited eternity for the Go-Karts
and yes Bestie was screaming her head off as I drove her again
All you can hear coming from our kart is
"Okay okay I won't go so fast! Okay press harder now now no no no now we're going down okay turn turn! No no no AHHHHHHH!"

But hey, she admitted that I was a not-bad driver *BEAMS*

Had a break at Orange Julius/BK
and then waited eternity again for Wet 'N Wild (saw someone from YJ)
this time Bestie managed to scream her "MJMG!"
HAHAHAHA

Rainbow was next
HAH lucky I sat with MH :P
or else I had to endure Kelin's laughing and Bestie's screaming again

And I didn't go with the girls into the Haunted House ):

Left Escape about seven plus
headed back to the chalet to start our BBQ
and Li Wen arrived :]
So laugh laugh talk talk cook cook help help eat eat watch watch
- fast forward

We played TABOO (: (:
Taboo is the ULTIMATE I tell you
Instead of trying to guess the word
you'll end up laughing at the person who's trying to describe it to you
For instance,

Word to Guess - TARZAN
Li Wen: Orh yee orh yee orhhhhh~! Bo cheng kor!
Bestie + Me: HAHAHAHAHAH
Yu Ting: Huh??

YT is one cute thing HAHAHA cos she couldn't guess a few obvious words (:

Word to Guess - SINGAPORE GIRL
Li Wen: Which country are we in?
Yu Ting: Singapore! Singapore!
Li Wen: Okay okay! I have *points to breasts* I have *points to breasts* So I'm a ??? I'm a ???
Yu Ting: Huh??
Bestie + Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA

Word to Guess - FINANCIAL PLAN
Yu Ping: You know the "ka-ching ka-ching ka-ching"?
All: HAHAHAHAHA

Word to Guess - FAIRY TALE
Me: You know you know the the, "happy ever after"? So..??
Bestie: Huh? CLAP?
All: HAHAHAHAHAHA

We should do this more often
seriously (:

Alright now I'm lazy to blog about the chalet
just want to thank the organizers for putting in so much effort (:
Yu Ting for Mr. Octopus (my new perms! :)
and the rest of the girls for such a fabulous chalet <3>

In the meantime, however
I will be working on a video as requested by Kelin
so be patient ya?

//

Today is Mummy's birthday (:
we went to eat at Taos
I think she really liked the collage I made

Was supposed to meet Love for a movie
but rehearsal got delayed and took longer than expected ):
Oh well

//

& it really could've been
should've been Me

1.11 AM

I think I might be having insomnia
which is not a very good sign

1.17 AM

Why can't we be more like the past?

1.23 AM

Maybe making a resolution to be happy,
wasn't a very good idea

1.40 AM

Fate can take a twist, sometimes
you just don't know when life will change

1.47 AM

Nights all.

Labels: at, random, thoughts

I'M TIRED,
but it's been a fruitful day
I'M SLEEPY!

Had lunch at Har Paw Villa (I haven't been there for decades so I forgot how it's spelt)
and the restaurant had a museum in it
although lunch was not absolutely fantastic
the mini-museum was an eye-opener

They should've shown us stuff like these in China
but hey, glad that I had a chance to be there anyway

I took so many pictures,
I don't know where to start

I really think people should think twice
give me a chance to start anew, to be happy
Although majority of my previous posts were emo
I am trying, I really am

//

I've got nothing much to say
so I'm just gonna present this to you
ripped off Friendster: