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/ Friday, November 30, 2007

Hello reader
been long?

I'm sorry for the lack of updates
so here I am first thing
to not let anybody down

//

I stayed at Grams for five days in all
no Internet
just my books and my phone to text

Wednesday was spent at ECP cycling
then lunch at Great World
and steamboat dinner at Marina Bay with dearest 125
to celebrate Pru's birthday (:

Managed to really get down and study
for two to three hours in the morning, afternoon and night
but there's still alot for me to catch up on :/

//

I don't feel alright
somehow right now

I feel torn between two places
maybe it's cos I feel more comfort at my Grams
where my every need is being catered for
and that unshattering calm that I get every night when I'm on my own
studying in the living room
makes me feel like I'm finally solitary

But over here, somehow
I need to fend for my own sometimes

//

MAYBE - SECONDHAND SERENADE

Didn't you wanna hear
the sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
and I don't think that I have the strength
to let you go

Maybe it's just me
couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye
And your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well been shattered
And I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
about the things that kept you on my side
when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me
couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye
And your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday
I promise I'll be gone
And someday
I might even sing this song
to you
Might even sing this song
to you, to you, to you

And I was crying alone tonight
And I wasting all my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
so just come back I'll make it better than it ever was
I'll make it better than it ever was

Maybe it's just me
couldn't you believe
That everything you said and did
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye
And your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Maybe it's just me

XOXO

/ Friday, November 23, 2007

Seriously
what would it hurt
to just not say anything when you see my scars?

I'm getting really sick of this

Put yourself in your shoes
and try to give a second thought
when you say what you always say (I will scare my friends off? - Just how hurting is that?)
Maybe staying at Grams next week onwards
will make me feel better
so that I won't have to try to be flawlessly perfect
or try to be that someone I will never be

I could love you
you know that
but if I could
I can only wish hard
that you wouldn't mind it so much

//

I'm immensely tired
all I feel like doing is curling up in bed with my MP3 that's going bonkers
and my soft toys (well, gotta make do without you)
try to sleep

We got that much time
left to cherish

Tell me
did you fall for a shooting star
one without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while
you were looking for yourself out there

XOXO

/ Wednesday, November 21, 2007

I do have a lot to say, actually
but somehow
I find myself staring hard into this blank page again
Somehow
my words have drifted away

Well in life
there are always options and priorities
wants and needs
& I guess it's always up to us
to choose

//

I didn't regret going for the class outing
(S.E.N.T.O.S.A ; Siloso Beach)
Really, 125
you guys never fail to make my day worthwhile (:

Hey Kenny
I'm still waiting for your email to come in

125, to me
just shares this unspoken bond
that just can't be broken
You guys always get me through my darkest moments
and then I know everything's gonna be okay
(:

I'll pick some of my favorite photos to share
:D

Hello Marcus
now I know you can be cute (haha)
hope that wound on your feet is better
and do clear your thoughts proper
but just know that your friends will always be with you
(:

I LOVE YOU, CHAR & SHIAN <3
a whole lot, believe me
you two are my pillar of strength
and my harbor of hope and comfort
thank you for every single, little thing

HAHA JunYan, what's with the smile
"I'm just showing my teeth!"
(hahaha)
You and Kenny make the best joke-of-the-year combination,
ever :D

KENNYBOY :]
so are we still bribing the school
to keep our class together?
125 would be dead fishes without you,
I swear.

Trying to imitate that Jackie Chan commercial
(:

Okay okay
I know it's very few photos
but the rest are up on Photobucket!
:D :D

//

And so last night
I couldn't get to sleep again
cos once again I knew
I was losing that strength that I really needed
and I really wondered how
I could actually survive
day after day
without you

Perhaps just once in awhile
I need you to give me
a little more of that strength
so I can walk on

//

But fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

XOXO

/ Tuesday, November 20, 2007

There's a thumping pain at the back of my head
I wish I could down some cold iced coffee
and try to sleep (oh, the irony)
cos I've got a long day tomorrow

People need me
or is it the other way around

I need you too

Truth is
I'm still struggling to find a way
so I can survive

Goodnight;
& I'll carry this to the end

XOXO

/ Sunday, November 18, 2007

Tonight
everyone will fall deep into slumber
but how do I?

I'm done crying
almost forty-five minutes ago
I reached home
hurled myself into bed
grabbed Clover
and told her,
"I can't do this alone"

I'm done being strong
and always being the one there for others
cos it's all too hard

//

I hear the soft rumble of thunder in the distance
so yes, it might rain tonight
I don't know what I need

XOXO

/ Saturday, November 17, 2007

If there's a show I could be addicted to
it would be this
<3

I've watched Episodes 3 and 4 online
but unfortunately my computer's too stubborn to let me watch the rest ):

//

Rhapsodies 2007 rocked big time! :D
Credits to all performers, stage crew members
and of course
not forgetting the teachers the man behind it all - Mr Francis Liew!

I was just happy to see my juniors up there singing
though every now and then
this feeling of nostalgia floods through me
there and then I knew
I missed it all

The finale was superb
because the choir never did anything like that before
so great job!

The rest of the performers were splendid, too
whee!

Seeing all my friends and teachers
just makes me happy all over again <3

Ai Shan the Mummy =X
She accompanies me NLB, helps me pay for all the photocopying I do
safe keeps the key to our lockers
et cetera, et cetera.

Hello you cute thing :D
you have nice red hair.

Hey Brian
you look kinda out of place ):

Kelin never fails to be pretty (:

Sometimes in life
just once in a while

you need to look a little spastic

Kelin / Mei Qi / Yu Ting
(:

With a very beloved choir instructor
(was and always will be)
Mr Francis Liew

//

Walked to Lau Pa Sat for supper after the performance
talk talk laugh laugh crap crap (:

Then home

//

You know
the first thing that hit me when I woke up this morning was
"IT'S THE HOLIDAYS!"

Hah yeah right
I have homework
and block tests slapped right in my face
in the early month of Jan
):

I need to
1. Print out Math homework from ePortal
2. Start reading lecture notes 1 - 10 on Religious Fundamentalism
3. Do my Int. History Essay (& to remember to include examples from Peru and Columbia)
4. Revise Chemistry ):
5. Work on CSE Research Paper

and alot more I know
I just don't know what

//

P.S.: It really took me long to compose this post
Blogger is being really silly

XOXO

/ Friday, November 16, 2007

The one character trait that I truly admire
is patience

Because I let time go by
it's funny how we say to make every second count
but sometimes
for certain things to happen
you need to give it more space
have a little patience
and it will

//

I gotta get back on my much-needed rest
so I promise pictures tomorrow
as well as a good update

//

Do you want to stay like this
forever?
(:

XOXO

/ Thursday, November 15, 2007

Is this a dream
if it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb

They're asking if it's alright
I say
yeah it's all good (It is?)

//

I dropped my phone while trying to open up a text
and the navigational keys went bonkers donkers ):
HAH but surprisingly
after charging to full battery
it's alright now :]
Saves a trip down to the repair shop

Heavy rain today
got my shoes and socks all wet
I spent fifteen minutes sitting in the kitchen
and blowing out my shoes with the hair dryer
I told my Mom,
"I've got patience."

Now the base of my right foot is itching
must have been the stupid smelly wet sock

//

Reunion

XOXO

/ Wednesday, November 14, 2007

This could be a mistake
but I know it isn't
cos I was convinced
right from the start

So what I do
what can I say?
Maybe numbing myself from it all
could be the best way

//

I skipped Squash and I don't give a damn
my last period ended at 12.40 PM
and CCA starts 5.30 PM

Time spent at the library is time well-spent
so went there
and continued my CSE research paper
mostly photocopies from relevant books

//

I did something really bad today
with Prunella and Yuen Yee :]

Step One: Pee

Step Two: Peep

Step Three: ... Wrong place?

Credits to Kenny the photographer
and forgive the fogginess of the pictures
must have been the effect of after-rain :/

//

Enough said
I might as well turn in like now
although I'm fugglin' hungry

Was this what I really wanted
there's so much I could say
)':

XOXO

/ Monday, November 12, 2007

Life just can't get any better than this

I'm really screwed up right now
and my dear friends, please
don't get worried over me
I will be fine
(I just don't know when)

Changes are good
but not when it changes so much

So I was sitting there thinkin'
I can do this
just Hang on.

My eyes feel really sore
but weird
I haven't been crying But I think I'm tired, really tired.

I live on raw emotion

(Does it take a lot to say that?)

This didn't use to be so hard
it all is now

XOXO

/ Sunday, November 11, 2007

Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I have a lot to say tonight
I just can't find the right words

Well I haven't seen the stars shine
for what seems like eons
Clouds will do
for the time being

//

F*** school
(One more week, hang on)

//

I can feel my heart aching inside
but yes my dear friends
I will be alright

12 Nov - Jun Yan's birthday
16 Nov - Rhapsodies, Singapore Conference Hall
23 Nov - Concert at SP

Can someone promise me Sentosa
next week?

YH, Brian & Precious
thanks for hanging out today :]

//

Maybe tonight
all I need is sleep

XOXO

/ Saturday, November 10, 2007

Those words are long Gone
but I'm still standing here

Say goodnight
so I can get to sleep

XOXO

/ Friday, November 09, 2007

I like it -

the sound of my own footsteps on the cement floor.

The indication that I'm alone,
despite all the buzz and noise.

No stars tonight,
to guide me in this blackness.

Cold wind.

I look out for traffic.

And see that flash of bright light,
from above.

It's alright.

I'm alone.

I will be okay.

//

It's ironic,
but I've never felt like this in a million years.

Sitting right in front of you,
and sharing that one plate.

Oblivious to the lingering smile on my lips.

If only you knew...

Do you know?

I've never looked at love from the eyes of a star,
but I've learned how to now.

//

StarDust (:

It's not the exam period
but I'm studying tomorrow

//

I need some distraction
oh, beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me empty
oh weightless and, maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

XOXO

/ Thursday, November 08, 2007

Chocolate Mousse (:

There's really nothing much to update
:/

I've been studying, actually
Chemistry's Carbonyl compounds
Int. History's Religious Fundamentalism (Iran, Egypt & Algeria so far)
and CSE's research paper :(like a second mini-WR)

Block tests in Jan
can you imagine?
):

Sigh
whatever

XOXO

/ Tuesday, November 06, 2007

I feel screwed up still

Resting at home today didn't do much good
my stomach still hurts
and the pain comes back off and on
I don't think it's gastric
and I don't know if its food poisoning

But I know
nothing's helping

It's really pissing me off

My MP3's conking off too
after I dropped it like five times a year
time for a change

TONGUE TIED - FABER DRIVE

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like some things just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cos every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cos every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone just tell me what to say
to make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cos every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cos every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground
so we'd never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground
so we'd never fall down again

Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cos every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cos every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground
so we'd never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground
so we'd never fall down again

XOXO

/ Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Hello world

Promotion Status: Advanced

So when I saw that word on my result slip
I couldn't figure the feeling that washed through me
if it was relief
or sadness

I was expecting myself to take a supplementary paper
either for my Math or Chem
(fyi, I have tutors for these two subjects)
but I don't have to
I can return to school as per normal for intensive lessons
and I mean
really intensive lessons

The Principal's speech at 5PM at the Audi had me taken aback
they had actually moderated and lowered the mark criteria for grades below D
so that more of us could be Promoted or Advanced, or take a sup. paper

Advanced?
The more I think about it
the more I feel
what crap
I'm not good enough after all
(it's just a nicer way of putting it)
I worked alot harder than some of them
but the promotion status is different

I'm still carrying on
and I hope you will too
(Just don't give up now, cos you got me.)

//

I'm staying home today
because I had a really severe pain in my left lower side since 3PM yesterday
I had to text honey and he rushed back
and chided me of course

(: Thankyou anyway
for giving me a lift home
and buying the gastric pills

Doc said I had alot of gas in my stomach
and now I have to avoid coffee and tea ):
spicy stuff too

//

I've got stuff to pack today
books and papers
so I'll end here

//

Give me a sign
I need to know
what's going through your mind
:(I'm worried about you, honey)

XOXO

/ Sunday, November 04, 2007

Tonight
it rains

and Tomorrow
everything might change

I'm scared
please know that I am
that I don't want anything to happen

// uoyevoli
dlrowsihtnieslegnihtynanahterom
ehtaerbitahtriaehter'uoy
(thginoTeMhtiWereHereWuoYhsiWI)

XOXO

/ Sunday, November 04, 2007

In life
there are lessons that humans learn
but then again
there are some that we don't

Like missing out chances to say a simple "I Love You" to the ones you treasure
thinking you'd have days ahead to say it
but just not today
not right now

Like declining an invitation to hang out with your friends
thinking that you can always fix a date "another time"
but just not today
not right now

Like not making an effort to check your calendar for a friend's birthday
not mustering up the courage to drop a coin or two into that blind man's box
or not putting aside time to visit that friend or relative you've been vaguely thinking about

so on and so forth

They say
time and tide waits for no man
so live life to the fullest
and do what you want to do
today

But which one of us actually does that?

Therein comes regret

Time is running out for me
because I don't know whats in store for me tomorrow

because I didn't take the chances
and didn't live this year to the fullest

As much as I want to do it all over
it won't guarantee that all of us
won't take things for granted again

):

XOXO

/ Thursday, November 01, 2007

Make me understand

Not this
not now

XOXO

/ Thursday, November 01, 2007

I hope you know
how special all of this is to me

Through seasons of change
we're still gonna be there for each other
I know it

We almost gave up
I know we wanted to
but I hope we never will

I'll never find another like you
because you're the one and only in this world
and the only one for me

The nicest thing I could receive everyday
is your smile

I would make your world more than alright
if you could sleep in my arms tonight

// now could you say it all back

Hey 125
Photobucket's updated

And just wanted to let you guys know
even if Monday had to separate the whole of us
you'll be the reason that I didn't regret for coming back here
the reason for my every laugh
and now
you'll always have a place in my heart

I've cherished
loved
and I will remember
I promise
(:

XOXO

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